Different Debbie!

Hi friends. I've decided to add a new page to my blog.....because, well there's more to me than being Anosmic!
So from now on I'm going to try and post once a week. One week my musings and anything I want on this page, the other week my Anosmia life, smell and taste loss, on my main page.

So today I want to tell you about the 'Diva' me, and don't laugh.....its a side of my life that I still
love.                                                   Singing!

I don't do it as much as I used to. Considering what's happened to me I suppose my focus was elsewhere, (check out my main Anosmia page if you want to meet that side of me), but I want that to change I want to start enjoying life more!

'Debbie the Diva' stuck as my nickname for a long time because of being a singer and, I must admit, a bit of a drama queen at times!
I'm still both to a degree, but less so the drama queen these days I hope.
My niece also called me 'Diva' for a while, 'Auntie Diva' in fact, she was about 3 years old at the time. But that didn't last long as I didn't want her growing up thinking that was my first name.
Can you imagine the scenario? Her first serious boyfriend comes over to meet the family for dinner......."and this is Diva my auntie". Oh dear I can picture his face now! I soon put a stop to that. I then became 'Auntie Debor', and now I'm just plain old Debbie....fine by me.

I didn't mind my friends calling me Diva really, it was an affectionate nickname and represented the singer and performer in me, which I've always been. My mum said I sang before I could even complete a sentence when I was a very young child. It was the confident side of my personality that appeared when I sang as opposed to the shy and quiet person that people who didn't know me assumed I was. And I suppose a lot of the time I was, but put me in front of a microphone and there was a different side of me that shone through, the singing 'Diva' personality I would become in that moment in that performance. I want that back! Not in a big headed way I was never like that, but in a confident, positive way.
I have to admit I am terrified of getting back on that stage and its going to happen in under two weeks when myself and my husband Ruck, who is a very talented guitarist, perform at Richmond Live our local music festival in Richmond, North Yorkshire. There's just the two of us, an acoustic duo called Jayhazy, and there's nowhere for me to hide, no drum kit to duck behind, or more singers to support me if my nerves get the better of me and I hit a dodgy note. Arghh, I'm getting butterflies already!
But I'm going to do it and once I'm up there I'm going to enjoy it too, because the me I should be (oooh there's a new song in there somewhere), needs to emerge again. Yes I know that sounds cheesy but its still there, I can tell when we rehearse our set and I love it! Out comes the old tambourine and I'm jigging about the room like a 16 year old, having such a good time!
So on Saturday 30th July think of me jumping about like a nutcase singing my head off and send a few good vibes my way wont you. Thanks.